Showing posts with label anger. Show all posts
Showing posts with label anger. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

About the recent wave of violence in Muslim countries

So one man decided to make a movie ridiculing the prophet Mahomet. It is a questionable and condemnable action, I agree.

The movie has been leaked intentionally or unintentionally on the internet an we all know the mighty limitless powers of Youtube.

The Muslim / Islamic based people have fought last year - for a great many months for their freedom and their basic human rights against despotic and tyrannic rulers; blood was shed, lives were lost. That was somewhat acceptable, in the long run, because political systems changed and allowed the greater population to have a chance of a better life. It can be considered noble, even.

But in the end of summer 2012, Muslims suicide and killing other fellow innocents with them just to express their anger at the movie of ONE individual who probably did this in order to get some attention, is tragically lame, massively stupid and downright inexcusable!

ONE individual makes ONE movie and sparks ONE fire FUELED by A MINORITY which takes amplitude and kills innocent people of both American (aka the strangers, the outsiders, the "evil occidentals" and later of their own people. And yes - the Q'aran preaches love and help and tolerance and all the good things of life - like Jesus.

And if I remember correctly, the amount of atrocities committed in the Holy name of the Christ spans for over 2 thousand years and escalates in violence and stupidity.

WHY is that the radical minorities have the strongest impact on the majority of peaceful populations?

WHY can't we stop the fire now that it's yet in the beginning of it?

and mostly -

message to the Muslim people in the streets - and if someone wants to translate this in Arabic - you are most welcome to do so, I fully take credit for my words and thoughts.

WHY do you waste your time fueling and giving this egoistic idiot what he wants ? He made that movie OBVIOUSLY to insult your culture and religion because he Obviously KNEW the outcome of such actions from his part. We have a good amount of references from the past - it's not like he can say he didn't knew!

DO YOU REALIZE YOU ARE GIVING HIM MORE CREDIT THAN HE DESERVES? YOU HAVE FALLEN INTO HIS TRAP!

These people are egoistical beasts who do cheap thrill filled actions to get a maximum of attenion on them and he succeeded. The more you - the Muslims - go in the streets to express your anger (and you have the right to do, I am not denying that at all!) but the more you do so, the more you give HIM importance!

Please BE MORE INTELLIGENT than this demented ego boosted idiot and give YOURSELVES the right to be Above him.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

To come home to this

I came home five minutes past 5pm to yet another night of familial despair or dismay.

I had asked my father his HMV store card because I wanted to buy the Ice Road Truckers DVD series from History Channel. I was planning on going in on Thursday, but since he is not working at the moment, he went to the mall and got it for me yesterday ( Tuesday ). I said I would repay him back. I had already money taken out - good thing.

What bugs me is his attitude. He's an alcoholic since God knows when ( and he is turning 60 this year, meaning he has been drinking since close to 20 years, or 30 if I want to be idealistic and optimistic : half his life ! ) and obviously he has been drinking today too ! He had to quiet it down during December's end and January's first 2 weeks because mom wasn't working and she was home - so he didn't quite have the freedom to drink a bottle a day like he can normally. So, yesterday he drank and forgot to turn on the heating in my room, today the same. But, before, it was always fine and warm and heat taken care of for when I would come back from work. He is home ALL day - would it kill him to turn on the heating one little hour before he knows I get home ?

So, I come in the apartment, shout ( in Hungarian ) "It's only me." He was in the bathroom, but heard me pretty damn well, but still had to loudly ask "Is that you Emi ?" ( I find this kind of ... thing dull, redundant and moronic ! I just fuckin' stated it was me. )

He goes on about the fact he bought my DVDs and they are in my room - I am not that idiot, I have seen them on the corner of my furniture piece and the bill too.

I get out the money of my wallet - 80$ in 20$ bills and a 5$ bill to reach 85$, but I say that if he has change for a 20$ - I have one more to reach the agreed amount of 95$ for the 3 DVD series.

Instead of just plain and simple take the money, give me the change and move on, he took a whole half an hour rambling about honesty, counting over and over the bills, throwing them on the living room coffee table like a professional mafioso man, throwing 2$ coins along side his 5$ bill in the same fashion and rambling on and on and on about the agreement of that amount of my DVDs and the bill and the total and ... I was keeping calm, but I was totally fed up and annoyed. I mean, for fuck's sake, just count the damn bills, give back what you want and move on ! It's only a 100$ not a million !!

Then mom came home.

This episode just ... exploded like a natural geyser when dad asked if we were going back to our home town village because my sister wants to go back in March. My mom said that yes, but that Nothing was set in stone, nothing was sure since my sis wants the whole family to go back ( her husband, daughter, me and mom ) but she doesn't know when her husband can have vacations so Nothing is sure. Dad goes on :

He was sitting at the kitchen table, smoking. Mom just had a long day of work ( from 7 am to 4 pm ) and went on top to do some groceries, puts them down and Dad like a crow bird of ghastly bad future telling goes on " I had a vision ( dream ) of your mother. You should speak to your mother." My mother of course naturally asks when he had that dream, sight or what ever. Dad asks, in repetition - clue that it wasn't recent. Thus, not a true common phenomenon with a real death annunciation as it is quoted in some books on the topic. He goes on that he had that thing some time ago ! My mom asked - Since I was home for the past two months why didn't you told me this before ?? And she is absolutely right ! He, on the other (drunken) side just ketp on rambling that my maternal grand mother had cursed him ( his bad luck with work, his difficult and miserable life ). My mom defended her mother naturally and I agree with her, and said "I just come home from a long day of work - why do you tell me this now ?"

My mom, further one and sort of under the rush of a small vengeance, asked or said that dad's Mother was responsible for his doom. And dad - instead of defending her mother - repeated 3-4 times "Yes, my Mother is a whore!"

That completely shocked me !

In truth, his mother had fallen in love or has fallen under the charms of the young master of the house where she was working and serving as a cleaning girl and got pregnant. Of course, the young man being the heir of a good family, the girl being a poor ( I am not sure if she was orphan or not, but poor for sure ) couldn't stay there. This is a small village in 1930's or 40's Transylvania. A woman's virtue, honor and life was ruined by the passion of a man who'll never face charges, guilt or anything ! For him, it was a game, a pleasure moment (s) and nothing more. For her, shame, guilt, a kid to bring up on her own - a kid who wears her mother's name because she cannot bear her father's - being a bastard child.

The young woman eventually got a small one room house somehow, met a soldier, got married and had 4 more children with the man. The last one, being my father.

But what happened to her in her young years, in the circumstances of her life cannot be held against her and she does not deserve to be treated the whore word by her own child.

... I don't know to conclude this one, so I'll leave it as is - just saying that all this adds to the cup and one day soon, the cup will overflow.

Even if I have to take my mother with me in the new place.