Friday, November 30, 2012

One amazing Friday!

It seems as if everything just unlocked all of a sudden, or as if the sun rose behind the hills, allowing me to see and enjoy the landscape.

I have had my zazzle store up and running for quite some time now, but I never gave it significant importance nor hopes.

I have been drawing Puffies since 2005, but they were most likely ignored and not taken ... well, seriously is a word far too out of reach to be even considered...

But let me start this off as it should. I have a tendency to wander off when I attempt to create introduction contexts.

Today I walked down to the nearest Staples store located inside the Marché Central to pick up printed posters which were ready for me, which I dropped off yesterday morning, got the call yesterday afternoon past 5pm, and went to pick them today.

I go there and nicely wait in line, while a gentleman was being served - printing CVs and reference letters in multiple amounts. My posters were given to me and opened before so that I can test proof them or see if i am satisfied. I nearly fell on the floor with contentment! The quality of the paper - a stronger glossy thick cardboard-ish sort of paper! in that poster format (18x24)! The ... feeling of seeing your work printed like that, looking all perfect and professional! I was squealing, I will admit it!

The posters had white boarders because in the process of resizing them - i had originally designed them 27x40inches which is a real movie poster standard format - and since the printing team was nice enough to not cut off my copyright and other texts - they printed as they could and left the white edges which the printing department asked me if I wanted off. While they did, I tried to print a set of cards I designed for community project, which didn't quite worked out, so I will drop them off tomorrow or Monday to be printed and sent off as soon as they are ready. So, I go back to the desk, pick up my stuff, and head out.

Staples and the Dollar Store are one next to each other and there is a bench in front of the dollar store where people sit down or sort their purchases. I saw a man there but I thought, I'll take the far out side and put away my posters. What was not my surprise when I noticed that the man was the client before me, at Staples! I do now know if he in fact waited me out or if this was random, but, he addressed me nonetheless and asked if the posters were real movie posters, to which I giggled and confessed that no, they were fake movie posters that I designed and illustrated.

I take off the elastics and show him my works, explaining that, since I don't draw humans, this is my way of doing art.

The first one top was Project Wendy, and I felt the need to generally give him a context.

"You know the movies Thor and The Avengers?"
"The guy who plays Loki did a sort of a sketch or something in which he was a fake delivery man, he improvised this mustache, which he called Wendy and it became a social thing on the internet. This is a silly little thing done inspired by that. And the rest is for his birthday present."

Then came Midnight in Paris (also landscape oriented) to which I precised that I hadn't seen the movie, but the title inspired me. Then the Christmas ones with my own characters which he totally loved! I shared the joke behind Ding!Dong! The Christmas bells are ringing which started off as my friend spotting 3-4 snowflakes one afternoon and my character Sybille feeling the need to knit them scarves and tuques.  Then I introduced him to Suzy Snowflake, a classic old winter holiday song and Tommy's Angels, to which he instantly recognized the Charlie's Angels reference! I was so happy! And lastly Walpurgis Night (with German title).

He congratulated me again and shared his appreciation of my work. He asked me if I was working and I said no, not at this moment, but now, with some time, I wonder if he didn't mean if I worked as a professional illustrator or publicity creator.

He shared his appreciation of my work once more and I finished wrapping my stuff, as he also left and went on his way.

When I was done, I also went in the same direction to walk back home and haha - there he was on the same street, and we met again at the corner before we crossed. I then sort of walked ahead of him and he probably went on his merry way home and me, to mine.

But the fact that a total random stranger liked my work so much! with repeated praises comforted me and reassured me in my ... desire to send these off to my Muse. I doubted a couple of times, to even finish them, then to print, then to send them, but each time, I either got a dream, or a sign - like today - that I was doing the right thing.

After I got home, and made myself a tea, and created the official Puffies page on facebook, I went to Zazzle to check my stuff and add the Christmas cards designs and what is not my surprise, as i go through the profile update procedure, to notice that I actually sold items! I know that I had sold Sybille doing sky or winter sports last year or so, and I was not expecting anything after that! But i'm thrilled to see that I also sold a men's t-shirt of Mjolnir (Thor's Hammer), Kitty Khat (the blue and purple illustrated fantasy ca), and Christmas hollies sticker :D

Today was grand! And just to know that there is someone out there wearing MY design! it's grand!

Sunday, November 25, 2012

It feels like

It feels like suddenly liking and wanting a dish one never took any special interest in before, a dish one knows to be dangerous, because of serious allergies, and yet, this one time, one feels uncontrollably driven to take a bite, or two, or to finish the plate, even if it means a possible death after the meal.

And it feels odd and it's scary because the dish is now all of a sudden very real in front of you, appetizing, with exotic and yet familiar scent, taunting and burning your hunger.

It was easier before when the dishes I craved for were, and still are, not in my own dimension.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

I want to love Whom I want to love

Translation : I would like to love like I want, who I want, at the moment I want and where I want.

And I am actually doing it.

I have decided that I wouldn't give the slightest fuck to people disagreeing with how I feel about a certain man. This is My Heart and My Life. If my heart made this choice, I fill follow the path it is tracing for me and enjoy every step of the way!

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

who is your character in avengers?

Tony Stark / Iron Man
[ ] You like booze - nothing like Jack Daniels meets Dr. Pepper
[X] You are the life of the party - I can thrown in a few good lines and crack some jokes
[X] You love gadgets - d'uuuh!
[ ] You can be rather cocky
[] Your favorite color is red or gold - PINK and grey
[X] You're good with computers - noob geek, working on being a real geek
[X] You use sarcasm a lot - you can't possibly imagine.
[] You love getting attention - nah. I try to stay clear out of it
[ ] You're good at mechanics - I suck so bad it's not funny!
[X] You have issues with your parents - Yup. Massive ones.
Total : 5/10

Dr. Bruce Banner / The Hulk
[ ] You're good at science - I suck.
[ ] You can get very aggressive when ticked off - I avoid conflict. Gives wrinkles.
[X] You like to be secluded most of the time - yeah. routine is comforting.
[X] You like wearing baggy clothes - it's called COMFORT and yeah i prone that
[X] You like to meditate - yes and pray and think and chat with myself
[ ] You like doing science experiments - only in the kitchen!
[X] You try to avoid getting into fights - yeah - I don't wanna kill for free
[ ] You like wearing purple things - eeew no.
[X] You're clever - I been told so
[] Your favorite color is green - not even around Christmas, sorry
Total : 5/10

[ ] You're good with a hammer - well depends what you want me to smash....
[X] You like coffee - Fokyeah!
[ ] You can eat a truckload of food and still be hungry - nah - i eat, i'm done. let's move on.
[X] You can be arrogant - yes.
[X] You have long hair - Rapunzel length! (they do reach the crack of my ass)
[X] You have an interest in astrology (astronomy*?) I'm an astrology freak!
[X] You can get sulky when things don't go your way - I take it too personally yes, defeated to the core
[X] You're willing to take a fall for someone else - I always apologized to one day teachers for the class' bad behavior
[ ] You like to dress up as fantasy characters - O_o i'll pass on that thank you
[ ] You don't get on well with your sibling(s) - I love my sis!
Total : 6/10

Steve Rogers / Captain America
[X] You like helping those in need in any way you can - 24/7 if I am asked
[X] You hate bullies - I was bullied myself, so obviously I don't go promoting them!
[ ] You're a great leader - If such situation would arise, i presume...
[X] You're a bit of a do-gooder - Yup Yup !
[ ] One of your favorite color is red, white or blue - PINK.
[ ] You like wearing things with stars on them - nope.
[ ] You strongly admire the army - Absolutely NOT. I admire the medieval knights.
[ ] You have a good throwing arm - keep dreaming!
[ ] You like war films - Can't stand them! Unless it's ID-4 or Star Wars
[ ] You're good at running - I used to. I had this great trainer back in grade school. He had a crush on me, ran after me, i ran away from him : morning. break, lunch! I was in Top Shape! Dammit! I need a guy to run after me to get back into the swing of things!
Total : 3/10

Colonel Nick Fury
[X] You like wearing long coats - It's called keeping your legs warm in winter. (And In Canada, you foken need it!)
[X] You're good at organizing things - I'm a master at classifying!
[ ] You're good at being in the loop - Dude! I live in the neighbor galaxy!
[X] You like guns - Well, they are quite sexy if well designed.
[X] You're good at giving information to people - I am a good teacher.
[X] You like giving solutions to people's problems - I do that on MSN 7 days a week.
[ ] You like eyepatches - Only on Halloween Nights when I am a pirate.
[ ] You work best as part of a team - I work best on my own.
[X] You like beards - If it's on Tommy-Cakes... yes.
[ ] You like wearing black things - Depends...  if they are comfortable.
Total : 6/10

Natasha Romanoff / Black Widow
[ ] You like wearing tight clothes - Not in this life!
[ ] You can do martial arts - in my dreams at night. Spent a couple years though.
[ ] You're intrested in the world of spies - Nope. I'm into SWAT teams and assassins.
[ ] You have red hair - Dyed them once.
[] You're quite agile - Miss Clumsy!
[X] People generally don't know much about the real you - they keep telling me that!
[] You like to make yourself look good - Euh -- nO! You take me as i am. Deal with it. I hate make up
[X] You can speak another language - French ad Hungarian
[ ] You're good at taking orders - Deeeepends! I'm good at executing but I'll decide if I agree or not beforehand.
[X] You were born in a different country to the one you are living in now - yes, good ol' Transylvania!
Total : 3/10

Clint Barton / Hawkeye
[ ] You're very good at archery. - Never touched a bow and arrow in my life.
[X] You currently like/love someone on your team - Is Tom on my team ? I presume he is since I'm his fan....
[ ] You like to wear purple and black - Nope. Definitely NOT.
[ ] You're very good at aiming - In my dreams perhaps
[ ] You've worked at the carnival - Never even went to see one!
[ ] You like working in a team - I'm a lone wolf, buddy!
[X] You're up for almost anything thrown at you - I am good at deciding if I want to take the risk or not to accept what is thrown at me to deal with it.
[X] You'd be a top assassin if you ever took the job - Fuck yeah! I have some years of experience.
[X] You're quiet - Too quiet = Dangerous. That is me.
[X] You tend to get along with people well - Yeah, most of the time!
Total : 5/10

[] You want to be a great leader - Fuckno!
[X] You want to prove something - Yes.
[X] You're the younger sibling - hehe indeed.
[X] You've been/are overshadowed by a sibling - It's the opposite entirely but feels as wrong!
[ ] You don't get along so great with your sibling - I love her!
[X] You're good at lying - I'm very skilled, indeed.
[ ] You're adopted - I wish.
[X] You're very clever - Been told so.
[X] You are able to manipulate people well - Yes, if I really want something out of them. But most of the time i feel bad receiving stuff.
[X] Your favorite color is green or gold - Nope. Pink, or grey or white, or blue.
Total : 7/10

Fuckyeah! I'm Loki!

Friday, November 02, 2012

Love and finding your home

TOM TALKS- “When I fall in love with someone, then that doesn’t “just” happen… When I love someone’s character, over time I’ll see that personality, I love so much, shining through their eyes and fusing with their appearance, turning them in the most beautiful girl in the world. It’s not about appearance, it’s about someone’s beautiful, amazing, wonderful, fantastic personality, you’ll see every time you look at her. It’s about the fact that when you look in her eyes, you just feel home… You forget all your problems, all your fears, you just feel safe, you feel like you’ve finally found a place where you belong… A place you can spend an eternity, where you will spend an eternity, cause those enchanting, beautiful eyes will slow down time and make every second; looking in her beautiful eyes, right into her amazing personality, last more than a lifetime. It’s about the fact that the whole world, the whole universe just looks so much more beautiful! All of a sudden everything looks different and your heart will just start smiling. That’s what love is all about… the moment someone you only “liked” before, changes into the most aesthetical pleasing girl in the world. The moment you realize how blind you’ve been all those days, how you were living in a fake universe, never knowing that the only thing your life is all about, the only thing that keeps you smiling, was all the time right next to you.”— Tom Hiddleston (on finding love)
Emi replies.
No Kidding.  
Seriously. That is pretty much my quest and I nearly found it! I just need to find out if Henri has a physical living incarnation at the moment, and who happens to be. Though - I have to admit. I fear sometimes, it's a part of you. You have the sea in your eyes and the cathedral in your heart. And that is my home. 
Dear Muse, you see, that is the problem. That is why i have tried so hard to avoid you, to run away from you and what you inspire me. I have searched for home all my life, to a place, to a person to belong to, and I fear that you are far too great to be that person.  And I love you and I cannot deny that. I care for you, for your happiness, your well being; I wish to inspire you, to make you smile, to make you happy. I would be the first to play Cupid if I knew another woman would make you happy, and if I could influence the odds. Yes it sounds weird but love is like this ; you want the other's happiness to glow int heir eyes, before your own selfish needs and desires.
I have loved men that appeared in my dreams because they were that - people living in another realm where things are possible with a heart's secret sight. I could conjure up a thousand excuses, they are all valid and they all can be tossed aside by your hand. Funny isn't it? One's stone wall can be washed like a child's sandcastle. I think what frightens me the most is my own feelings for you and how far I am ready to go, to please you. It's not something I am accustomed to experience or even feel. I always stood my guard, not allowing real men to reach me. The ones I loved, never knew I had feelings. But you, you know it. The question is - have you read between the lines of the social mask to see glitter the secret honesty laying there at the pond's bottom. And I hope and I pray you didn't. I hope and pray you have read that rapidly. glancing over the lines of my confession as you would for any other fan of yours who had declared the same things - more or less. 

I see you in my dreams, almost every night. That is almost all that I need. I guess. For now.