TALKS- “When I fall in love with someone, then that doesn’t “just”
happen… When I love someone’s character, over time I’ll see that
personality, I love so much, shining through their eyes and fusing with
their appearance, turning them in the most beautiful girl in the world.
It’s not about appearance, it’s about someone’s beautiful, amazing,
wonderful, fantastic personality, you’ll see every time you look at her.
It’s about the fact that when you look in her eyes, you just feel home…
You forget all your problems, all your fears, you just feel safe, you
feel like you’ve finally found a place where you belong… A place you can
spend an eternity, where you will spend an eternity, cause those
enchanting, beautiful eyes will slow down time and make every second;
looking in her beautiful eyes, right into her amazing personality, last
more than a lifetime. It’s about the fact that the whole world, the
whole universe just looks so much more beautiful! All of a sudden
everything looks different and your heart will just start smiling.
That’s what love is all about… the moment someone you only “liked”
before, changes into the most aesthetical pleasing girl in the world.
The moment you realize how blind you’ve been all those days, how you
were living in a fake universe, never knowing that the only thing your
life is all about, the only thing that keeps you smiling, was all the
time right next to you.”— Tom Hiddleston (on finding love)
Seriously. That is pretty much my quest and I nearly found it! I just need to find out if Henri has a physical living incarnation at the moment, and who happens to be. Though - I have to admit. I fear sometimes, it's a part of you. You have the sea in your eyes and the cathedral in your heart. And that is my home.
Dear Muse, you see, that is the problem. That is why i have tried so hard to avoid you, to run away from you and what you inspire me. I have searched for home all my life, to a place, to a person to belong to, and I fear that you are far too great to be that person. And I love you and I cannot deny that. I care for you, for your happiness, your well being; I wish to inspire you, to make you smile, to make you happy. I would be the first to play Cupid if I knew another woman would make you happy, and if I could influence the odds. Yes it sounds weird but love is like this ; you want the other's happiness to glow int heir eyes, before your own selfish needs and desires.
I have loved men that appeared in my dreams because they were that - people living in another realm where things are possible with a heart's secret sight. I could conjure up a thousand excuses, they are all valid and they all can be tossed aside by your hand. Funny isn't it? One's stone wall can be washed like a child's sandcastle. I think what frightens me the most is my own feelings for you and how far I am ready to go, to please you. It's not something I am accustomed to experience or even feel. I always stood my guard, not allowing real men to reach me. The ones I loved, never knew I had feelings. But you, you know it. The question is - have you read between the lines of the social mask to see glitter the secret honesty laying there at the pond's bottom. And I hope and I pray you didn't. I hope and pray you have read that rapidly. glancing over the lines of my confession as you would for any other fan of yours who had declared the same things - more or less.
I see you in my dreams, almost every night. That is almost all that I need. I guess. For now.