Inappropriate Meme

stolen from deviant art - mouhaha -originally from http://freakkatt.deviantart.com/

Rules:
1.) Go to urbandictonary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
2.) Post the 1st definition it gives you.
3.) Tag someone after completion.

1.) YOUR NAME

The kind of girl who everyone loves. She's stunning and is always lovely. She has a cute face and a great body. Normally she originates from Italy or Spain. Girl 1 'Wow look at that girl , doesn't she seem amazing?' Girl 2 'Yep, she's definitely an Emilia'

2.) YOUR AGE?
29

The age at which most women stop aging (or so they say!).

3.) ONE OR TWO OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Angel
	The perfect boyfriend; someone who will stay on the phone with you just because, someone who opens doors for you, someone who makes you feel warm and fuzzy inside whenever you're near them. They generally tease you a lot. But you never care.

4.) WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING?
Living :

That's what you do after you are born and before you die.

Can't ya bet Just a tad bit more.... specific ??

5.) FAVOURITE COLOUR(S)?
Pink :

A word girls wear written across their butts. Grey:

A type of extra terrestrial being (alien). Usually the most common amongst alleged abductees. Also the type most commonly connoted with the Rosswell, New Mexico crash site. Some believe Greys are of the same species of alien as Reptilian. This is debatable.

6.) BIRTHPLACE?
Tirgu-Mures isn't defined yet.
Transylvania :

	Transylvania forms the western and central parts of Romania. Comes from latin "trans" meaning across and "silva" meaning forest. So it literally translates to "the land across the forest". Transylvania usually is accosiated with vampires, which is up to you to decide is true or not.

7.) MONTH OF YOUR BIRTH?

The idea of perfection. The 8th Month of the year in certain European and Asian cultures signifies greatness in achieving perfection, or something close to it.

8.) DAY OF YOUR BIRTH?

The age at which an American can drive a car and get a job, but still can't vote.

Legal age for fucking in the UK.

The age of consent in most countries.


9.) LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?
Best Friend

Best Friends are very special people in your life. They are the first people you think about when you make plans. They are the first people you go to when you need someone to talk to. You will phone them up just to talk about nothing, or the most important things in your life. When you’re sad they will try their hardest to cheer you up. They give the best hugs in the world! They are the shoulder to cry on, because you know that they truly care about you. In most cases they would take a bullet for you, coz it would be too painful to watch you get hurt.

10.) NICKNAMES?
Em
1. A typically short girl, who makes up for her lack of height with her extreme beauty, hilarious sense of humour and outgoing nature.

About the randomness of songs

I was working on the second part of my story today, working the cottage scene, making myself a tea and kept having Trans Siberian Orchestra's A Final Dream's lyrics in my mind "Lay your head down, and sleep on my shoulder" http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/trans,,Siberian-orchestra-lyrics/a-final-dream-lyrics.html

A couple hours later - Tom tweets his song of the day : Tom Hiddleston ‏@twhiddleston

Song of the Day: "Let's Stay Together", by Al Green. Mmm-hmm. 

How coincidental. 

Love the randomness of life. 

About the recent wave of violence in Muslim countries

So one man decided to make a movie ridiculing the prophet Mahomet. It is a questionable and condemnable action, I agree.

The movie has been leaked intentionally or unintentionally on the internet an we all know the mighty limitless powers of Youtube.

The Muslim / Islamic based people have fought last year - for a great many months for their freedom and their basic human rights against despotic and tyrannic rulers; blood was shed, lives were lost. That was somewhat acceptable, in the long run, because political systems changed and allowed the greater population to have a chance of a better life. It can be considered noble, even.

But in the end of summer 2012, Muslims suicide and killing other fellow innocents with them just to express their anger at the movie of ONE individual who probably did this in order to get some attention, is tragically lame, massively stupid and downright inexcusable!

ONE individual makes ONE movie and sparks ONE fire FUELED by A MINORITY which takes amplitude and kills innocent people of both American (aka the strangers, the outsiders, the "evil occidentals" and later of their own people. And yes - the Q'aran preaches love and help and tolerance and all the good things of life - like Jesus.

And if I remember correctly, the amount of atrocities committed in the Holy name of the Christ spans for over 2 thousand years and escalates in violence and stupidity.

WHY is that the radical minorities have the strongest impact on the majority of peaceful populations?

WHY can't we stop the fire now that it's yet in the beginning of it?

and mostly -

message to the Muslim people in the streets - and if someone wants to translate this in Arabic - you are most welcome to do so, I fully take credit for my words and thoughts.

WHY do you waste your time fueling and giving this egoistic idiot what he wants ? He made that movie OBVIOUSLY to insult your culture and religion because he Obviously KNEW the outcome of such actions from his part. We have a good amount of references from the past - it's not like he can say he didn't knew!

DO YOU REALIZE YOU ARE GIVING HIM MORE CREDIT THAN HE DESERVES? YOU HAVE FALLEN INTO HIS TRAP!

These people are egoistical beasts who do cheap thrill filled actions to get a maximum of attenion on them and he succeeded. The more you - the Muslims - go in the streets to express your anger (and you have the right to do, I am not denying that at all!) but the more you do so, the more you give HIM importance!

Please BE MORE INTELLIGENT than this demented ego boosted idiot and give YOURSELVES the right to be Above him.

Fake Rumors leading to death threats

I don't even know from where I want to start this entry.

Fact is - the matter of the content - the content to be written is just so astonishingly stupid it saps my inspiration.

The recent whirlwind of events make me wonder about things such as - for example - how the fanship fueled credulity of some fans can be a wild fire with devastating outcomes.

Once upon a time, a few days ago, it was rumored on twitter that actor Tom Hiddleston would appear on the Thor 2 movie shooting location. By Thursday or Friday, with the  lack of photos provided by the many spies swriling around the shooting location, the said actor had a considerable amount of hate tweets and even death threats sent to him - but very much so disappointed "fans".

Now - let me scalpel open this as a doctor would open a patient's chest for a heart transplant.

1 - Twitter.
It's Not Facebook and even Facebook can be fake so - it's not because the account name is Thor2TheMovie that you have blindfold trust everything it tweets!

With the amount of fake / fan / dedicated accounts for Tom and Loki and anything in that galaxy - confusion could have happened, I agree, especially if the account was NOT FOLLOWED by the movie crew or actors. I mean don't you think it would be just NORMAL for Tom or his agent or the producer or who ever is working on the movie to FOLLOW that account ? Seriously. Just think about it.

2 - Rumors.
Do you guys know the amount of logistics it takes on a daily basis on a shooting location? There are highly sensitive and costly material to move around, to keep safe. There are hundreds of staff people to have on location. There are good reasons why there is a tight schedule and there is a reason why scenes are shot in a specific order - which accommodates a maximum of working staff people. Weather, availability of equipment, of resources, of actors, of staff members working around the actors - everything is studied down to the iota to minimize the cost of budget. A movie is not done snapping fingers! And if an actor HIMSELF wouldn't tweet about being at a specific location at a specific time - why would anyone give so much credit to an unverified source?

Furthermore, if the actor didn't tweet such info or was requested NOT TO do it for security measures for example - didn't anyone thought of that? Have you considered that? Not all fans are happy little polite and respectful ones - and the people around the actor are very well aware of this aspect about their clients - so of course everything in their power to protect the said actor is used and it's just flat out normal!

Last but not least - can movie producers make a movie without the world knowing Everything about it before it is launched in the theater rooms? I mean what's the point of knowing and seeing everything beforehand ? Don't we go to see movies in theaters for a certain experience? To discover something - to enjoy the unexpected? If Thor was shot in Siberia in the middle of the winter - would you go there just to have a chance to see Tom ? It's not because the location is somewhat easy of access that you have the right or the permission to sneak around! There are tight rules about release of information for good reasons! Why do you think contracts have certain lines about confidentiality and such and so on?

I feel like we are killing the magic - raping the magician and roasting the bunny on a camping fire!

3 - Seriously - Do you seriously consider that Tom owes you or us anything ? It's as if the fans who believed those rumors believed that Tom is like a sort of best friend who had promised to pop in for a coffee and cancelled at the last minute. Even though Tom and his fans happen to have a very nice and close relationship - he still has the right first and foremost - to his own private life with his family, his agenda, his working schedules! He doesn't owe his fans anything! Especially if he wasn't even aware of the rumors going around. He is most probably not on Twitter and Facebook all day long checking out the countless things going around about him! He is an actor! He has lines to know by heart - he has scenes to practice! That requires a few technicalities like a quiet environment WITHOUT silly stupid time wasting distractions.

4 - Death Threats. Now - YOU CANNOT CALL YOURSELF A TOM HIDDLESTON FAN IF YOU DARE just dare think anything bad about him, even less send him angry hateful tweets and death threats ? Are you for real ? Who do you THINK you are ? What about respect ? It just shows how intolerant, how foolish, how naïve and how superficial you are! Would you send a death threat to your local grocery store cashier girl because you didn't find that box of cookies which was advertised to be on special on the shelves ? No, of course you wouldn't! So why in the name of good common sense would you flame an actor you supposedly admire? Have you people considered the consequences of these stupid actions on the long run? What if security tightens around him to protect him against such wild and inconsiderate "fans". What if he won't be so generous of his time in the future? Makes me wonder how old these barbaric retards really are! Because if this is how you admire your actors, singers and public figures - I don't want to know how you dare treat your own friends, family and pets!

It's already nice of him to actually be on twitter - which allows his fans to interact with him - we should be thankful and not deteriorate the situation and his trust in the other bunch of fans who do actually care for him and his safety.

All in all - it just shows how immature and bluntly stupid some people are.

Stuck in the elevator

stolen from

• 2 days, 19 hours ago by ~clawddraculaurafan10
• Journals / Personal

I stole this one from ~misguidedghost777

Me and you are locked in the bathroom together... // Me and Tom Hiddleston // Samaël // Sabik // Henri Morvan stuck in an elevator

[x]1. Hardcore sex -- with the 3 last ones
[x]2. Talk about life -- all 4
[x]3. Play video games -- al 4
[x]4. Get drunk -- would be fun! (And I would trust these men not take advantage)
[x]5. Make out -- of course
[]6. Awkward... -- ope - i feel perfectly okay with these blokes
[x]7. Watch porn -- can it be gay ? with Sam and Sab only thought!
[x]8. Confide in each other -- of course -- all 4
[x]9. Quick kiss -- Tom on the cheek, the 3 others a little more explicitly passionate
[]10. Argue -- have no reason to
[]11. Try and get out -- if I really need to use a bathroom yes ...
[x]12. Tickle war. -- deeeepends.....
[]13. Chill in seperate emo corners --no way!
[x]14. Make a baby. -- O_O Euh... >:D mouhaha yes.
[]15. Zombie Apocalypse in the dark -- ze what I beg your pardon ?
[x]16. Sleep -- snuggled up against these guys, after a long discussion about stuff - yes
[x]17. Paperwork -- burn them to fry marshmallows, yes
[]18. Fight -- nope
[]19. Hope for rescue -- maybe
[]20. Give hickies -- what's a hickie ?
[]21. Kill each of us -- technically cannot kill the Angel of Death, a doll and a memory of someone -- and i have no intention of hurting Tom
[]22. Hang our self -- would rather play tying their wrists with their neck ties but only for fun and games
[]23. Punch and slap each other until we're dead. -- nooo
[x]24. Snuggle! -- yeeesss
[x]25. FANGIRL/FANBOY!! -- d'uuh obviously !

Girl's Confession Meme

 

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
Never wear one! When I need to – I wear a smaller than my ideal size sports bra to squish/reduce my chest down (as a teenager, I often said that, the day Bruce Willis will wear bras and openly admit how comfortable they are - I will make an effort - not before, not of my own will)


2. Do you sleep with socks on?
Who would ? I only wear socks when I need to go outside – inside I walk barefoot 24/7

3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
Alone – unless it’s one of the 4 Musketeers (Samael, Sabik, Henri, Tom)

4. Do you enjoy drama?
Daytime soap opera – a bit I guess – or dramatic movies

5. Are you a girly-girl?
Euh – I am romantic but I do not wear girly girly stuff nor act like one (hate skirts, love monster movies, not afraid of bruises, curse a lot)

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
My niece – she’s a regular hug-a-ton

8. Are you short?
1m63 and 3/4^th

9. Do you like somebody?
Yup

10. Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
Nope :D haha -

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
sadly not that much

12. Do you think you're alone sometimes?
desperately most of the time yes

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
not since I’m 12 but I wish I could

14. Are you double jointed?
O_o I’d be surprised if I even have the regular ones! Nevermind double…

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
… my life is too boring to have a decent answer – but I would love under the stars

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
nope and they wouldn’t be alive had they dared ^_^

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
I never paid attention to what people tell about me

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
nope – eeuh – do you count fictional character who doesn’t like his first name ? but even him I call him by his first name I refer to him (Fox Mulder – the X Files)

19. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?
one

20. Check those that apply:
[  ] I do wear make up.
[  ] I have cried in a movie theater.
[  ] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[ ] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[ ] I like death/grind/black metal.
[ ] I like rap.
[ ] I like techno
[  ] I like country.
[x] I carry a purse.  – when I go out – it’s sort of mandatory
[x] I'd be lost without my computer. – hell flippin’ yeah
[ ] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[ ] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I own a boy band CD. – I presume that the Monks of Stift Heil… something do not pass off as a Boysband…
[ ] I get bored watching football.
[ ] I've never been called a spoiled brat.
[ ] Guys are confusing.


21. What color is your bra that your wearing?
Not wearing anything under my t shirt

22. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys/girls?
When I think I love blonds, I fall for the dark; when I think I love the dark I fall for the blond so I’ll go with redheads as a safe choice

23. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
Nope

24. What's one thing guys can do to make you like them?
Look like dolls

25. Do you have a best friend?
yessers – he’s my strudel-nugget-love-pie

26. Have you ever had your heart broken?
too many times, starting at too young of an age

27. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
Yes, to get rid of my breasts but I am living through – ignoring them most of the time it goes

28. Do you like your life?
I’m in the process of questioning that

29. WHERE DID YOU GO?
raised my head to watch Earl Bassett (Fred Ward) being dragged by a stubborn ostrich in Tremors 2

30. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boy/girlfriend from you?
Nope, I never was interested in real guys enough to have a declared official boyfriend

31. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
Nope – but I have jumped once and I blacked out and I had issues with water ever since

32. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
Guys totally number girls

33. How long have you had a Facebook?
Since college …. 2005-6 … O_O fucking hell that’s some years now….

34. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Nope, but I nearly broke one’s nose by opening a door !

35. What are your biggest fears?
physical pain caused by penetration during sex

36. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes once or twice …

37. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Currently in the process of it. And past ones are still roaming around. Even if I was attached to them as a kid (Throttle (a Biker mouse from mars (from the animated series Biker Mice from Mars) , Rudiger (a kid Vampire from the TV series The Little Vampire, Nosedive (a hockey playing duck from the animated series Disney's Mighty Ducks), etc  etc -- no wonder I find humans desperately boring... )

38. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater?"
I would need proof to change my mind but I am willing to have an open mind

39. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
euhhhhhhhhh … buying dolls

40. Do you ever wish you were famous?
Maybe but – m’eh – don’t care much if I am not

41. Are you currently missing someone?
… not particularly

42. Cowboy or Gangster?
Cowboy! At least they ride horses and I love their tartan shirts - and they are honest hard working men, they have values and principles

43. Preppy or Punk?
Boring – but I guess gypsy or goth

44. Face or Body?
Face

45. Good cook or take you out a lot?
Good cook and I want to help out in the kitchen and talk and share and stuff

46. Sweet or sexy?
neither

47. Armani or Abercrombie?
fruit of the loom!

48. Contacts or glasses?
I prefer glasses – no way in hell I am poking a lens in my eyes

49. Have you ever had sex in RL?
yes – 5 different men – it all comes down to be boring … sorry but I will quote Andrew Eldritch on this – I want More! I want a deep connection – a spiritual something – a … beyond the body sort of thing

50. Have you ever thought you'd marry someone you dated?
nope! They never lasted more than 3 months so – haha – nope!

Thomas William Hiddleston

T.W.H

Thumping, my heart, thumping, it beats

Hollow dreams are built into concrete;

Once upon a fantasy, you abate my fears to obsolete,

My! My! – My pilgrim heart sings the forgotten duet

And there I am once again –

Savouring the sweet promise in your hand.



Will my heart hold your world?

I wish, I hope, I want to see you grow old.

Lie to me, my sweet prince, lie to me,

Long is the night and there is yet time to dally

In your eyes, you hold my hopes

And with your words you bond tight ropes

My heart is yours – dare I invite you to elope?



Hooked! – My heart dances in your grace

In your eyes I have found my place.

Dwindling down the rabbit hole,

Drowning into your perfect soul…

Look! There is my Wonderland

Eternally, my inspirations, I would amend

So as to better fulfill your heart's content

That lonely tomorrow is my only lament

One moment more!  Lost in your enchantment

Nabbing naïvely at your shooting star's end.

Love

Why is it considered fake or any less of a value if the feelings that burn you deep inside - making you actually want to be different from the being that you are - are directed towards an entity that cannot reflect and redirect those feelings back at you?

Why is love in a social definition something that has be to be shared by both parties, in knowledge and trusted shared common accord?

According to Merriam-Webster dictionary online :

Love as a noun is : 

strong affection for another arising out of kinshipan assurance of affection
warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion

Love as a verb is :

transitive verb

to hold dear : cherish 

to feel a lover's passion, devotion, or tenderness for

So if one feels ( transitive verb  to handle or touch in order to examine, test, or explore some quality / to perceive by a physical sensation coming from discrete end organs (as of the skin or muscles) love for another someone - no matter how close or far the receiving subject is, what is the value of the thoughts or feedback of people judging and criticizing this phenomenon that ones lives and feels and has in a most sincere and honest manner in the depths of themselves ? Why is the fact that the recipient of these feelings is somewhat physically or socially distant, why is this fact holding such a great value upon judging something as elusive as feelings ? 

I was chatting with a friend online, on MSN, tonight, and this came into topic. How the feeling of love cannot be true or real or acknowledged for someone who is not concretely reachable. And I ask - Why? Why cannot it be real - since the other one, the one judging - is not feeling the intensity and the depth of these feelings the same way the other party who holds and physically feels these abstract concepts in their very flesh and muscle (heart) ? 

I once saw in a documentary that the simple color red, for instance, is not an exact science, since as much as there are humans, there are that many possible ways of seeing the color red, even if you give the same exact shade to everyone. The way each every single individual's eyes and brains grasp and interpret the information is left to each individual - so in fact, Test Subject A does not see the color red as Test Subject B does! And this is something down to earth concrete and simple as vision - sight - something medically and scientifically proven. So, if this is such a complicated and not so matter of fact poured in concrete science, how can we even begin to mingle the topic if feelings and judge them ? 

Of course logic and common sense come into play - one might say, it is foolish and worthless, or a waste of time and energy - but if one would sit down and list all the activities humanity does which are strictly in the equation of survival completely useless and energy consuming, one couldn't argue much against wasting feelings. I will pick the Olympics for this. Do you need the Olympic games to live? No. You do not need need to break a record to be able to breath, eat, sleep and shit, and function as an individual in a society. You do not need, as a spectator, to see the achievements of this little minority in order to breath, eat, sleep and shit, and function as an individual in that same society. This is called a distraction, an entertainment.

So then - if one chooses to do an activity that is completely pointless for their surviving necessities, how can this one judge upon something as uncontrollable as feelings ? Even more so - the feeling of love - which strikes when the right combination of factors are met, and which factors can be fully acknowledged by the one "undergoing" or completely ignored. 


Luke buys tickets to watch a sports events.

Matthew falls in love with a woman on the other side of the planet.

Luke watches the game and feels happy and feeling a strong emotion towards the team, towards the game and cheers for them. 

Matthew somewhat interacts with that woman he knows he will never meet, and yet, is transported by her and has real feelings in his heart for her.

Luke will never shake hands with the players, or tell them they performed in a most outstanding way on the field and filled his heart with pride and joy.

Matthew will never hold that woman's hand, and tell she inspires him very real, deep, strong emotions which he has not felt for other women before.

How can one judge Matthew as being foolish and wasting his time ? He is transported and inspired the same way Luke is. In a different context and reacts towards a different medium - but both experience a strong feeling that cannot be catalogued or stripped into a proven mathematical or scientific formula, yet, they are very real in the core of their existence and effects upon both men.

Why Not Tonight

Actors -

Sabik - leather jacket, dark red t shirt, dark (black) jeans, leather belt, chains, studs, biker boots
Ellie - blue man's shirt, pale pink tank top, military print shorts, biker pink boots with studs

Location - bar, somewhere in the Nevada desert

Setting - post apocalyptic future - dusty/destroyed/post war ravaged

Intro - we see the smokey bar - the tv plays a country video without sound - someone puts a coin in the old Jukebox -- Reba McEntire - Why  Not Tonight

Camera moves to the bar where the barman pours a pint of beer, the two middle clients - Sab and Ellie -

All The Reasons I Love Tom Hiddleston

Because my last blogger entry went into the void of Cyberspace -I'll be a total bitch and unleash the uncensored version of this.

1 - He inspires me to try to act more womanly and thus accept my current female condition.
2 - Thanks to him, I understand why fruit flavoured condoms - or textured for that matter - were invented
3 - He is way to busy with his life to acknowledge my existence, thus I can happily fantasize over him without any guilt trip
4 - He looks like a doll - and I have a thing for dolls
5 - His fans can put him and his "career launching" role into the most delightfully entertaining fan art contexts - including homosexual, submission, bondage, neko (cat-man) and a couple others which totally electrify one's imagination
6 - I wouldn't giggle like a high school girl if he walked naked in front of me - I think that I would take his masculinity into a serious and natural context
7 - Oddly enough, I don't feel shy or bad or unease at the doggy style perspective - which I normally despise
8 - He passed the "sleeping test" with an A+
9 - Never met a man i want to kiss as bad as i am dying to try him
10 - What he inspired me and still does is just insanely strong! Like I said it in previous blogs, this guy is a fucking 40 meter high Rogue Wave
11 - Once I accepted all of the above, I'm serene and I actually don't regret nothing nor feel bad. Refer back to number 3 for this.
12 - He is the first man that actually inspired me an interest in his dick. Which is quite impressive.
13 - I am re-discovering things i have buried so deep inside of me, I had forgotten it was things I liked and was curious about
14 - When I think of sex fantasies with him, I'm not randomly pulled out by thoughts of women being abused or sold and sex being a negative thing - which is among the reasons why I quit on it; my choice to say to, in the name of all the women who can't.
15 - Depending on my hormonal rages - i can be either a female or a male with him and both feel very natural and normal. Other men are so straight and stuck in that figure - they are impossible to be imagined with another male figure, which cuts half the fun away.
16 - (reason posted on facebook - something along the lines of Tom waking me up like the Prince would wake up Briar Rose in Anne Rice's version of the Sleeping Beauty tale - which i have not read and won't before some time yet) 
17 - I love this man and yet I avoid him. Haven't seen the movie Thor - where I discovered him - more than 5 times - which is an epic low, considering I can watch a fave movie non stop during minimum 3 months or more, all day long - all week long! Haven't seen Avengers yet - not sure I want to ... Haven't seen Hollow Crown and have no intention of seeing it before some time too. Have seen the Deep Blue Sea once and deleted the movie file. Haven't seen any other movie or series in which he appears. Normally I would hunt them down and run them until i puke. Only downloaded him reading poetry and that novel - The Red Necklace and some exhibition thing he did for the museum about the Egyptians. Been avoiding Twitter, Tumblr.

18 - He is the first man who inspired me the uncontrollable urge to run away to a far remote deserted location with no human communication devices available or working so I would get him out of my brain and heart. 

A concise reference of my Fictions

Year 2006

A chat With
Fiction about me meeting Andrew Eldritch - singer of The Sisters of Mercy
PG-G

That night ... (first edition of "a chat with) 
Same as above - alternate version - 
PG-G

 Andras De Lunsnoir
Introduction of my werewolf character. Fantasy, dark fairy tale, mystery, love, life. 
PG-13

His Arrival
Original Character Andras. This is either a continuation or a prequel to Andras De Lunsnoir. 
PG-G

Deamon in the morning - I ; Cofee won't save you
Original character,dreams, slightly erotic, fantasy,
PG-13

Deamon in the morning - II ; Kisses in the kornfield 
Continuation to the link above
PG-13


Night Spy - The day after the rescue 
Original Characters and story about a team of spies doing nightly missions / allusions to bisexuality
PG-13

Night Spy - Debriefing
Second chapter to above link -

Night Spy - Getting Over the Damn Clothing
Third chapter to above links -

Further memo - Miss Taylor is actually a hermaphrodite - she is gifted with both female and male attributes - but that was not yet written. (I didn't have the courage back then to write that kind of intimate scene - even if i did fantasy about it a lot)

The Day I Became a Man
A female narrator tells her adventures as in a random turn of events, she woke up in a male body.
PG-G

The Day I Became a Man - 2 
Following chapter of above link

I am currently rewriting this one, updating it. Should be posted on wattpad some time soon.


Year 2007 

I need to loose some time
A random fiction based on a world I created - White Darkness - The Master is this over all dark and kind lord who has taken me into his care.

Mavourneen
Is basically the beginning of Sabik Mavourneen, a personal character and crush of mine. It is based on the Sabik Mecha Angel doll by DollSoom but in my mind he became his own individual. In this story, he plays the prostitute - gay magazines model. I am obviously the photographer. It is leading to eroticism, but it is not depicted.

Year 2008  




Gankutsuou YAOI fanfiction - I - Dance with me
Fan fiction of the animated series The Count of Monte Cristo as seen and revised by the Japanese team who made this masterpiece. Edmond Dantes, the Count of Monte Cristo, meets Albert, the son of his past love, Mercedes and falls in love with the boy. Gay romance.

I apologize for my crappy English of the past. I will re-write this, correct and update it ;)
Gankutsuou YAOI fanfiction - II - Kiss me
Gankutsuou YAOI fanfiction - III - Secrets in the dark 
Gankutsuou YAOI fanfiction - IV - Travel to Orient 
Gankutsuou YAOI fanfiction - V - White as Lilies, sweet as honey Gankutsuou YAOI fanfiction - VI - Hidden secrets revealed 


A New Queen Is
This was based on a dream - which is the beginning of the first chapter. In this bit the reader is introduced to the main characters and their basic stats
A New Queen Is 
Official first chapter of the story - we meet the queen
Harin's Travel
Second Chapter - we meet Harin and the 2 spies
Entering a New Kingdom
Harin and the 2 are travelling - secrets are shared
Finally Home
They are finally in the kingdom where most of the action takes place
Castle White
Harin meets Queen Aylie
So this is how...
First night Harin sleeps with Aramis - nothing happens though, but a kiss - they are not intimate yet
Private Meeting
The 2 spies describe their great concern to the queen and the dangerous threat it could cause
Something unthinkably blasphemous 
The threat exposed fully - concerns are arisen
Harin's New Family 
Ceremonials and official status being updated


Urgent Departure
Pretty much inspired by the illustrations shown at the bottom of the post - random fiction with Samael - my Captain character - mostly figh. This was the beginning of a fiction where the troups and I would create a love drug to get some easy pocket money outside of the mercenary contracts. Of course, Captain does not approve of us falling that low.Wolks are tall blue men (before Avatar and Frost Giants became popular for their skin colors, I had Wolks! ha !)


Random Fiction : Captain sends us to vacation The narrator is a detective in New York working on a fucked serial killer case.
Captain sends us to vacation - 2
Captain sends us to vacation - 3

I need to finish this one.  I know the plot and the outcome. I just need to finish writing it down.


Sabik Mavourneen - complete bio 
This was mostly for myself, with the earliest full details of my vision of him, his psychology, attitude


Wattpad

La mer
The first official story exclusively written for Sabik. It is in French though. We are both aboard the Poseidon, luxury boat; he is an electro musician and I am a camera woman - on a secret mission to film mermaids not knowing he is one himself.

L'auto-stoppeuse
A fiction starring Andras my werewolf as he retells his heart  breaking story with a Japanese student he had loved and who died in a bus accident. in French

Esclave du Plaisir
First finished short erotic novel. Homosexual oriented, with crude words and expressions. (Written when I was 17-19)

Morvan
Fiction dedicated to my character Henri Morvan, a tortured soul who after the tragic death of his father at sea rebells against it, becomes a priest, but falls into the temptation of a young Vietnamese girl, feels guilty,comes back home to become an old sea wolf as he calls himself before he would meet the woman of his life with whom he finally finds stability and balance. French.

Related chapters
La scène de la bibliothèque
Ellie has convinced Henri to pose for her, in the library of the house

Chose Promise, Chose Due
In exchange of the photoshoot, Henri has asked the right to "use her as he wishes" which mislead to Ellie thinking he wanted to have sex with her, but he had just set up a cuddling night watching Gone With the Wind in Breton language. Henri uses his high school actor talents to fool Ellie and play a prank on her.

Le Facteur
Continuation of above.This is actually how I exteriorized my anger to a Real Life event. An old flame of the main female character shows up at her doorstep just as she is officially settled in her relationship with Henri and it causes a great turmoil in her heart and mind.


Deputy Russel Clark
I had a mild crush on actor Joe Anderson in his role of Deputy Russel Clark from The Crazies, but I could never fully live out my attraction to him, because of his unspoken immaturity or lack of adult manhood ... this was sort of an alternate version of the movie/story


A Trip To Hell And Back
Real account of my hell trip vacation back to my hometown village in the summer of 2011


Le baiser du regard
French short story about a random kiss in the metro between the narrator and a goth boy - how ppl avoid contact, not looking each other in the eye, and he goes as far as that intimate act of getting closer to someone.


A Night With the Most Wanted Man
Fan fiction starring Tom Hiddleston and a female narrator. Erotic, poetic. First Act.

Guess Who
Second Act of the story linked above. Erotic and poetic

About the Harmony of Pain
Fan fiction starring Loki - the god of mischief and a female narrator. Erotic, gore, dark.

Potential Idea for Morvan's ending

I had this scene in my head a couple months back - I shared it with Cyndie.

My character is sitting on the bathtub's edge, she is bleeding. She just came out of the shower, but the water still runs. Her third son - Norman - storms in, not knowing his mother was there; he is shocked seeing her like that and is worried by the blood. Norman throws a towel on her shoulders and wraps her. She lets him do.He sits on the floor to face her, looking up at her.

At first he thinks she is having a miscarriage - even if the family hadn't planned new kids. (Sybille, 19, Philippe 17, Norman 15)

She whispers that it's not a miscarriage. Her tubes were ligated after Norman's birth.

Norman is shocked - he doesn't want to admit the other alternative. Henri is not aware of it yet. Although Ellie had been randomly bleeding on and off, it's neither her menopause nor last remaining cycles and she had managed to hide it from her husband. They have a pact between them, that Henri is forbidden to die out in the sea - which is his field - and she feels odd that she is the one ready to die, here in her field, home by her own femininity. Norman swears to keep the secret until she has confirmation by her doctor.

Last few chapters : she is in the hospital, dies.

The grieving, the mourning. Her ghost remains on earth to watch over her family for 3 months - until things settle down.

Philippe's daughter - by his Japanese wife - can see Ellie's soul / ghost. She informs the family, but does not disturb the process of life and doesn't play messenger between Ellie and her family. They need to open their hearts to her in order to hear her last recommendations.

Ellie's last actions as a ghost.

Assist Sybille and her fiancé Jacques on their own walk on the Camino de Santiago, since she always wanted to do it herself.

Give confidence to Philippe to be a theatre actor.

Save Henri from a rogue wave that would have killed him.

"Remember your promise to me. You cannot die in the sea. She won't have my man."

All the family members will see her one last time during the day they most need her.

Again a few random thoughts - or - All the Reasons Why

I wanted to write this blog last week but, I needed more time to gather thoughts and acknowledge some little details.

I think I needed a little... jump start, so as to excuse myself fro randomly listing facts. It came today on Facebook.

"Hiddles Goddesses

ok girls i have something to say... i've seen that many fans of Tom just like him for his Loki role... i respect that but i think that this way to think on an artist is basic and poor and also kinda disrespectful... an artist is more that just one role and deserve to be note and seen for all the effort that he done as an artist! Tom really has talent in many things like dance for example! so let's consideer to see beyond that beautiful face and the good role Loki because he has more to offer than that! -fio-"

With my personal answer being :

Emilia Tokes I recently found myself wondering if in fact loved him as an actor or a man with an incredible voice! For me, Loki - looking like an adult result of a childhood first love - is just the entry door to discover that in fact, a real living man can inspire me things that no other could before and which I tought were missing in me, like a missing dll in a running OS of a computer. lol I admire him for that too, on a very personal level. And of course - I admire him for all that he did - when i gather small info like his Double Major at Cambridge, or the fact that he did tv shows and other things instead of partying as a uni student. I find those small bits endearing.

37 minutes ago ·

And I shall continue here. 

I wanted to title this - All The Reasons I have to Love Tom, but, tonight this feels ... out of context. And maybe I should just keep them for myself. After all - they are my reasons and to quote Loki through my fiction - Tom did not only breach my defensive wall - he fucking nuked it to Hiroshima level dust! And that is good enough to appreciate him.

A few stats for myself

Collected stats from my written fictions with Tom and Loki on all platforms where they were published

There are 2 main stories in various chapters

The fiction titled "A Night With The Most Wanted Man" was actually what should have been the second story, since the first one "About the Harmon of Pain" is quoted in the previous title. (It's a fiction inside a fiction.)

The reason why this shuffling happened is because the original draft of About the Harmony of Pain didn't please me enough - it was simply too much of an amateur's work, with too many things copied, rather than inspired from the source.

Original location was set up in New Mexico, just like in the movie Thor, but I thought it wouldn't fit Loki's character, being a Frost Giant and I really wanted to work on the "monster" aspect, the all together physical, geographical and spiritual isolation of both characters. At night, before I would fall asleep, I kept having this random imagery of me walking in a thick snow at night - which is basically my White Darkness fantasy world which I run in my head since so long I don't know when I started it - and then, out of the blue, from behind a tree, Loki comes out of the shadow and each night the scenario would change. It took me a few days but I figured out that, Brønnøysund in Norway would be a much more fit location to the story, though it's not clearly mentioned in the text, I used google map to describe the region.

Also, the fact that the narrator lived in the same mobile home setting as Jane, from Thor, disturbed me in the sense that - oh look - one more same element taken from the movie. Added to Loki's fall to about the same drop point as Thor, I just couldn't take it. To me it would have been cheap and low thievery. Nothing original there, even if the fiction's purpose was set on Loki's hurt feelings and self questioning, it's not enough of a reason to go that low.

So now - the compiled data - as of August 6th 2012

A Night With the Most Wanted Man - I

Introduction part / PG- G

Comments: 90
Favourites: 54
Views: 739 (4 today)
Downloads: 3 (0 today)

Wattpad : Not available in this format

Blogger : Not available in this format 

A Night With the Most Wanted Man (full text) PDF

Full text / Mature

Comments: 216
Favourites: 44
Views: 1,098 (7 today)
Downloads: 43 (0 today)

Wattpad : 153 reads

Blogger : 20 reads

Guess Who ? Part 1 (sequel to A N W T M W M)

Introduction / PG-G

Comments: 41
Favourites: 32
Views: 509 (3 today)
Downloads: 19 (0 today)

Wattpad : 23 reads

Blogger : 14 reads

Guess Who ? Part 2

Second Chapter / PG-G

Comments: 12
Favourites: 18
Views: 224 (61 today)
Downloads: 2 (0 today)

Wattpad : 31 reads

About The Harmony of Pain

Intro + Chapters 1, 2 / Mature

Comments: 15
Favourites: 29
Views: 492 (4 today)
Downloads: 12 (0 today)

Wattpad : 16 reads

Blogger : Not yet uploaded

About The Harmony of Pain - Part 3

Chapter 3 / PG-G

Comments: 2
Favourites: 12
Views: 179 (4 today)
Downloads: 4 (0 today)

Wattpad : 18 reads

 Blogger : Not yet uploaded

Charming randomness of a Monday Morning

It started off on Deviant art - as I answered to a poll from a friend - ikaax - about deviant art releasing a second full day where all members can enjoy the premium privileges and one of his 3 choices was : There is a God and he loves you. Obviously I picked that one.

(print screen not available, my dearie took his poll off)

Then I went to twitter to check out the latest tweets - and the Stiff Hiliengertz (I'm dead sure I spelled that wrong) posted something refering to their facebook - which post I couldn't access because I am not yet liking them. I wouldn't have expected Monks to have a twitter and even less a facebook so i follow them only since last night and this morning.

So, I go to facebook, in order to look them up to Like them and guess what ?

First and top of my page - a photo of dear beloved Tommy boy! 

(This is the post the  Monks put on their twitter and which I wanted to see)

My first reaction is to comment on it - with honest truth : I came to find monks and I find Tom. Thank you!

I went to shower and re-thought this whole train of events and I giggled to myself! Yesterday I sort of made peace with Henri, Sam and Rey and I just bursted out loud at the Angelic sense of humor!

There is a God and He Loves you - go seek your passion (the monks) and you'll get what you run away from with all your strength. (Running away : avoiding Tumblr and youtube (since I don't google him up and I have more fans on twitter than the ma himself so, no danger there)

Yesterday, I was listening to Gregorian - The Masters of Chant and this one song - The Gift gave me such shivers and goosebumps! The lyrics went straight into my heart like fucking spears and arrows! To the outside world it's just a song, but to me, in knowledge of my Angels' ways of talking to me - this was totally a slap from them. And after I made peace in my heart with them, I felt so liberated and light! I can love humans and still do my work and follow their lead.

And this morning - they wake me up with breakfast in bed!

Looove You Guys !! so friggin much!

(And I was just chatting with my friend Stephen, relating the events and :

Steph :
teheheh its a sign lol   tu sais ce qui disent, les voies du seigneur sont impénétrables lol
It's a sign lol you know what they say, the ways of the lord are impenetrable lol
Emilia Tokes says
et j,adore son humour :D
And i love his humor
Stephen
c'est comme moi qui check vla 1 mois pour planifier ce voyage sur google map pis je trouve eurien
It's like me who was looking to plan vacations last month, this same trip on google map and I find aanoothing

pis là, on dirait toute est placé sur ma route pis je trouve tout en 3 jours lol
and now, it's like everything is laid out on my path and I find everything in 3 days lol

Gotta love the guys up there ! I sure do ! And even today everything is placing in a ncie smooth motion : I have time to shower, go out get pu erh tea and meet my friend Adriana ! It's basically 2 metro stations away!